Wednesday 29 May 2013

Live it while you can..

               Life is so very unpredictable. While we go on like we have an eternity to spend, death lurks closer than we ever thought. It sends out subtle reminder which shouts out "Time is running out"
               In my last post, I talked about the girl trainee in office. We were having fun in the company, getting our work done on time, gossiping during the breaks and travelling together. This week is the last day of work and we planned to go to Mc Donalds. It was triggered by her craving for potato fries and also the fact that we probably won't work together in near future. Yesterday we left office early as work was done before time. I just didn't feel like eating out and she too told she wanted to go home and then out with her mom to doctor. We went home talking and laughing like always.
               Till late night there was no watsapp from her which was unusual. Today morning I texted her on getting the train like I always do but there was no reply. I waited at the station for close to 5 minutes and called her up. 4-5 calls later too there was no response. Maybe she wasn't feeling feel and was asleep. I got into the bus to go to office. At noon we all got to know that her mother expired due to sudden heart attack. I was shocked to hear this from the manager.
               I feel strange writing this because tomorrow is going to be the day we were both completing the internship. I was going to complete on friday but she had planned to go on a holiday with her family so insisted we finish on thursday. Who could have seen what lay ahead? Its awkward to finish alone :(
              She is in no state to talk and is in deep trauma. Our mentor personally talked to me at length. Her words still echo in my mind," I lost my mother 16 yrs back and yet there isn't a single day when I don't think of her. Not a day when I wish she was here to see me managing everything so well. I think of her when my child says something that hurts me. Did I do the same to my mother? How did she forgive me so easily?" She got so close to crying. I can't imagine the plight of my friend who is still in shock..
              I do not know to exist in a world without my Mom. She wasn't around all day because she is a working woman. No, she wasn't always home when I came back hurt. She didn't make me dependent for every little thing. She always told me, " I travel in trains and I m out all day battling unknown evils. A bomb scare, a train accident, a terrorist attack! you never know where I will die." She somewhat kept me aware that death coexists with life and yet, I do not know how to exist in a world without my Mom. I can't imagine what it must be for someone too pampered and protected!
             My mentor repeats the words, " Be happy with what you have. This is your present. Don't worry what will happen in future. It always works out. You will finish studies, get work and struggle to go up in life but once you reach where you want and settle down then the graph is the same. There is no fun. No thrill of the uncertain. Life is unpredictable. Don't take tension and be happy with the present."
           The first few times I thought, "IT is easy to say that when you are in a stable position." I did not know this experience would happen so fast. One moment life can be so happy with a family planning their holiday and next moment they are at the funeral of their loved one.
           Live it up while you can.. We can't just be hit by a truck or a massive attack and leave with a list of things to do.. 

Monday 13 May 2013

Little update

  The exams are done finally! That's the first update. The exams got over on 3rd but that's another thing that I was too lazy to type anything until yesterday :D
After the exams we are required to do a month of industrial training. While the rest of my class got assigned companies in groups, I got placed with someone I never even talked to in college. When I got my letter for training I was waiting to hear the other names but alas! It was only me and him :(
Call it bias or prejudice or whatever, but there are some people you never choose to mix with. He is one of them. Being in the same batch of labs didn't matter at all in these 3 yrs. I never talked to him and being in the office for almost 6-8 hours with him was a feat in itself.
The first day of work started with boring assignment of checking the packaging and making a report of the same :( I learnt about some things I had no idea about and boy did I even know what all things they document! Trust me every package of medicine undergoes so much detailing and checking !
It was a slow day and even though I knew that I would have to deal with an uninterested companion, I had little idea about tackling the bigger issue-bad breath!
I almost died that day with being on my toes (literally!! because of the shoe bite :( ) for 6 hours and rushing about to save myself.
The day was soooo exhausting and by the time I was home I was about to doze right away.

The next day I got to know that my co-trainee was going to go home in 4 days and would return only at the end of the month. I was worried that the manager might want me to come also later with him :O Worse would give us a certificate without bothering to train any further :|  By the end of the second day I was relieved that nothing of the sort would happen and I would be allowed to continue but now I would b working solo. Eating solo. Writing report solo :( Sometimes bad company is better than no company at all!

It was the fourth day and I prayed in the morning that something worked out for me. Surprise, surprise! The moment I enter office, I see a new trainee. Turned out that she too would be working as long as I m :D
Plus I knew her from my 12th standard physics class. What's more ? She stays close by so I have company to go along with :D sometimes things work out for the best! We just have to keep going ... :) So now the fellow has gone home and me and the new trainee work together and its turning out quite well :)

The last two weekends I spent with my nephew who came with my cousin sister from Pune. So much adorable time we have. He's just 4 and I dote on him. Talking to him is so much fun :D Could have posted his pic here but my sis would be mad at me :P

The company I m training at has its audit so that means holiday for us trainees :) Work starts on wednesday.. Until then I have all the time in this world to cook, watch grey's anatomy, read blogs and laze around.

S is in town and busy :P Can't wait to see him!!!

Until later
M

P.s Ok that wasn't such a little update :P



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