Life is so very unpredictable. While we go on like we have an eternity to spend, death lurks closer than we ever thought. It sends out subtle reminder which shouts out "Time is running out"
In my last post, I talked about the girl trainee in office. We were having fun in the company, getting our work done on time, gossiping during the breaks and travelling together. This week is the last day of work and we planned to go to Mc Donalds. It was triggered by her craving for potato fries and also the fact that we probably won't work together in near future. Yesterday we left office early as work was done before time. I just didn't feel like eating out and she too told she wanted to go home and then out with her mom to doctor. We went home talking and laughing like always.
Till late night there was no watsapp from her which was unusual. Today morning I texted her on getting the train like I always do but there was no reply. I waited at the station for close to 5 minutes and called her up. 4-5 calls later too there was no response. Maybe she wasn't feeling feel and was asleep. I got into the bus to go to office. At noon we all got to know that her mother expired due to sudden heart attack. I was shocked to hear this from the manager.
I feel strange writing this because tomorrow is going to be the day we were both completing the internship. I was going to complete on friday but she had planned to go on a holiday with her family so insisted we finish on thursday. Who could have seen what lay ahead? Its awkward to finish alone :(
She is in no state to talk and is in deep trauma. Our mentor personally talked to me at length. Her words still echo in my mind," I lost my mother 16 yrs back and yet there isn't a single day when I don't think of her. Not a day when I wish she was here to see me managing everything so well. I think of her when my child says something that hurts me. Did I do the same to my mother? How did she forgive me so easily?" She got so close to crying. I can't imagine the plight of my friend who is still in shock..
I do not know to exist in a world without my Mom. She wasn't around all day because she is a working woman. No, she wasn't always home when I came back hurt. She didn't make me dependent for every little thing. She always told me, " I travel in trains and I m out all day battling unknown evils. A bomb scare, a train accident, a terrorist attack! you never know where I will die." She somewhat kept me aware that death coexists with life and yet, I do not know how to exist in a world without my Mom. I can't imagine what it must be for someone too pampered and protected!
My mentor repeats the words, " Be happy with what you have. This is your present. Don't worry what will happen in future. It always works out. You will finish studies, get work and struggle to go up in life but once you reach where you want and settle down then the graph is the same. There is no fun. No thrill of the uncertain. Life is unpredictable. Don't take tension and be happy with the present."
The first few times I thought, "IT is easy to say that when you are in a stable position." I did not know this experience would happen so fast. One moment life can be so happy with a family planning their holiday and next moment they are at the funeral of their loved one.
Live it up while you can.. We can't just be hit by a truck or a massive attack and leave with a list of things to do..
In my last post, I talked about the girl trainee in office. We were having fun in the company, getting our work done on time, gossiping during the breaks and travelling together. This week is the last day of work and we planned to go to Mc Donalds. It was triggered by her craving for potato fries and also the fact that we probably won't work together in near future. Yesterday we left office early as work was done before time. I just didn't feel like eating out and she too told she wanted to go home and then out with her mom to doctor. We went home talking and laughing like always.
Till late night there was no watsapp from her which was unusual. Today morning I texted her on getting the train like I always do but there was no reply. I waited at the station for close to 5 minutes and called her up. 4-5 calls later too there was no response. Maybe she wasn't feeling feel and was asleep. I got into the bus to go to office. At noon we all got to know that her mother expired due to sudden heart attack. I was shocked to hear this from the manager.
I feel strange writing this because tomorrow is going to be the day we were both completing the internship. I was going to complete on friday but she had planned to go on a holiday with her family so insisted we finish on thursday. Who could have seen what lay ahead? Its awkward to finish alone :(
She is in no state to talk and is in deep trauma. Our mentor personally talked to me at length. Her words still echo in my mind," I lost my mother 16 yrs back and yet there isn't a single day when I don't think of her. Not a day when I wish she was here to see me managing everything so well. I think of her when my child says something that hurts me. Did I do the same to my mother? How did she forgive me so easily?" She got so close to crying. I can't imagine the plight of my friend who is still in shock..
I do not know to exist in a world without my Mom. She wasn't around all day because she is a working woman. No, she wasn't always home when I came back hurt. She didn't make me dependent for every little thing. She always told me, " I travel in trains and I m out all day battling unknown evils. A bomb scare, a train accident, a terrorist attack! you never know where I will die." She somewhat kept me aware that death coexists with life and yet, I do not know how to exist in a world without my Mom. I can't imagine what it must be for someone too pampered and protected!
My mentor repeats the words, " Be happy with what you have. This is your present. Don't worry what will happen in future. It always works out. You will finish studies, get work and struggle to go up in life but once you reach where you want and settle down then the graph is the same. There is no fun. No thrill of the uncertain. Life is unpredictable. Don't take tension and be happy with the present."
The first few times I thought, "IT is easy to say that when you are in a stable position." I did not know this experience would happen so fast. One moment life can be so happy with a family planning their holiday and next moment they are at the funeral of their loved one.
Live it up while you can.. We can't just be hit by a truck or a massive attack and leave with a list of things to do..
2 comments:
An eye-opening post. Condolences to your friend and her family. Let her find the strength to move on with her life.
Until later,
Keirthana :)
That is so true.I personally believe that we don't know when our time is up or someone close to us have their time up.So never in life in a whole day we should hold any grudges or anger.we should tell a person what we feel about them and sort any matter that creates separation or periods no talking.At least we can die without a last to do and we can think that i did not let anything incomplete while they were with me.
It is an inevitable truth and we have to accept it.Some have difficulty at first some cope up well.I have this peculiar habit thought don't know if anyone else have the same but i don't cry or rather can't cry when someone dies.Because according to me their time on earth was finished or to put it nicely they have done all their tasks.
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